the travesties of the economic slump had left me, the post-grad, in a state of great despair. work was no where to be found -- save on the farms of Western Mass where time had long stood still and the ash of cigarettes continued to grow but never could be flicked off in that way that collegians make look so cool on the campus green.
too much time to myself and too much time for late night whiskey filled ramblings. still though, i grew to know myself. know myself in ways that must had been tucked away deep within my subconscious, coming out here and there in the occasional collegiate experimentation. a late night thought, a 3am photo shoot for a fellow roommate with a Q Lazzarus soundtrack.
Halloween always gives the freaks a chance to be themselves in the public eye, free of ridicule, under the guise that they are in costume, hiding behind some Nietzschian front of a mask. i'll never forget that first time i put on the tight red flight attendants dress. leggings were much more comfortable then i had thought they'd be. still though, i had to put on a good front for the boys...and the girlfriend.
so for the time being i had to tuck that part of myself away, but i knew i wouldn't be able to fight the urge to tuck myself between the legs for very long.
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"a color of phallic fanfare wherever he goes"
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Nietzschian masks are the best masks. As Nietzsche writes, "Every profound spirit needs a mask: even more, around every profound spirit a mask is growing continually, owing to the constantly false, namely shallow interpretation of every word, every step, every sign of life he gives."
ReplyDeleteGiven this philosophical insight, I am inclined to agree with the native Americans view of trans-gender people as "two souled" people. There is a depth of personality being cultivated that I, as a single gendered person, will never achieve. Please watch this clip of Transamerica to go off the deep-end with me and defend one's tendency to identify with the opposite gender.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHs3kEwcPFY
Google tha Four Loko brah,
ReplyDeleteTurns out one of the stimulants is an estrogen variant. Several cases of prolonged consumption leading to lactation and swollen chests in males.
My Hormoneeees!